-Beth Moore, Get Out of That Pit
My answer to this question is probably not. I carry with me years of abuse, neglect and homelessness. But as I move forward, I am trying to surrender all of it to Him. I am trying to get rid of the hold it has on me. Every step I get closer and closer.
Why is surrendering so difficult?
I think possibly because the past is such a powerful part of who I've become and who I have been shaped to be. It doesn't define me but it's still a large part of me. I feel like surrendering may entail forgetting everything that's happened or even saying it was right. That's an impossible feat for me. It's also hard to surrender everything to God if you still relive it every single day through flashbacks and nightmares.
I want to move forward. It's just at this stage of my life I'm not quite sure how.
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