Not My Fault

"The truth is that the things that came out of the heart of your abuser were the things that made him or her unclean. The abuse did not come from you, and it does not make you dirty."
-Diane Langberg, On the Threshold of Hope

As many of you know, I was abused in every way as a child. For many years, I have blamed myself and thought of myself as dirty. Rereading this quote was inspirational to me this morning.

Why?

Well, it puts the blame not on the absued but on the abuser.

It has taken me many years to get to the point that I am not blaming myself for what happened. I still do from time to time. "There must be something wrong with me... Why did it happen to me? I must have done something wrong..." Those types of thoughts invade my very being.

But as I continue to realize, it was not my fault and everything that happens that has been caused by the abuse is not my fault either.

It has taken a long time to get here, but I am moving forward.