Into the Bright Future

I've been studying for an exam I have on Friday for the past few days. I've studied probably about 15-20 hours for it so far.

Have you ever studied for something so much that you actually "see" it everywhere or you can't stop thinking about what's on the exam? I've been studying for a class about materials and I actually have started to "see" the quantum mechanical structure of the materials all around me. I think that's a sign that I'm almost ready for the exam. I keep looking around and asking myself what kind of structure does this material have? Is it an alloy, a ceramic, a... blah de blah blah? Is it strong, ductile, brittle? Is it crystalline/noncrystalline? You get the picture.

Yesterday, I posted about getting up after going through a rough time. I wanted to point out that it's probably one of the most difficult things one can do. Especially after a hard fall. But getting up after a fall can be one of the most rewarding things one can do as well. Out of the most difficult experiences often come great things.

The excitement of being back in school for me still has not lost its touch. The excitement of being out of the hospital is still very real and tangible. I am blessed each day that I move forward and learn to let go of the past. I don't take the ability to concentrate and study for granted.

I have been wondering why letting go is so hard. Why is letting go so arduous?

I think it is because it requires a lot for us to move forward and let go. We have to realize that we are stuck in the past and that with God's help, we can move forward. I don't necessarily know what it will look like for me to completely move forward, but I know I'm on my way to a bright future. I know I am moving forward each and every day. And that means more than words can say.

We also have to realize that the past is in the past and that we are not defined by our past. The past is over and done with. And we are free to move forward into the wonderful plans God has for us.

Amen.