"Why am I leaping into the future? Perhaps I've given my feelings no room to exist. Part of me gambles that by worrying in advance, bad news will be easier to face if it comes. But worrying will not protect me from the future. It will just keep me from living here and now."
-Courage to Change (Alanon book), Jan 15 Devotion
If you're like me, you constantly worry. You worry what's going to happen tomorrow or the day after that or the day after that. But maybe you've learned as well that worry does nothing but steals precious time from your life. Maybe you've learned that God holds your life in His precious hands so you have nothing to worry about.
Part of my anxiety comes from my mental illnesses. The relentless anxiety is part of my PTSD and paranoia. I worry what people think of me or what they are saying about me.
But over the years, I have learned to stay in the present and not let my anxiety and worries get the best of me. I try to not let them rule over my life, because they should not. I want to live in the present. I want to trust God with my whole being and move forward.
And each day, it gets easier. My paranoia is becoming easier to deal with. My worries and anxieties don't stop me from enjoying my life. I am living in the moment and enjoying life as it comes.
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