9 Months

I had two nightmares last night but they faded away from me once I woke up, not like the crystal clear nightmares I have had the past two nights.

I came across this quote this morning when reading my devotions:

"To break the cycle of worry and fear, I'm learning to focus all my attention on this very moment. I can turn away from destructive thoughts and concentrate on the sights and sounds around me;:light and shadows , the earth beneath my feet, the pulse of everyday living-all pieces of the here-and-now."
-Courage to Change (Alanon book), Jan. 10 devotion

Some of you may know, some of you may not know what today is. Today marks 9 months since I've been out of the hospital. It has taken all of me to move forward from the chaos that ensued the first four months of last year. This time last year, I was paranoid and chaotic with a capital P and a capital C. I thought the hospitalizations would never end.

But each day, I move forward. Despite the nightmares that I've had lately, I continue to strive for the best and stay in the present. I don't let the negatives get to me as much as I used to...