Yesterday was one of the most blessed days I've had in awhile.
First, it was the last day of the semester for me, meaning that I've made it through the entire semester without being hospitalized. This comes after last semester, in which I was hospitalized 4 times.
Second, I had two exams. No words can explain how blessed I felt when I took the exams. You see, my memory is not good on my medications...at all. On the prior exam in one of my classes, I completely blanked out and forgot everything I studied.... It was absolutely awful and very frustrating. I sat there confused, not remembering anything.
But yesterday, as I took the exams, I remembered nearly everything. And if I forgot something, I thought well enough to try and figure it out.
I felt so blessed as I took the exams. I felt the prayers of people who were praying.
There are definitely times when I miss my awesome memory, i.e. my photographic memory. When I was off the meds, I could memorize 60 pages of notes in 3 hours word for word.
But I know I need the medications to function, even if they play around with my memory.
Yesterday was the first day that I really felt that my memory was working despite the medications and it was a tremendous blessing. It reminded me that I can truly be successful on the medications.
This morning, I have an Exit Interview for the graduate school and as I go to this interview, I feel so blessed to be able to finish strong in the graduate program, despite 5 hospitalizations and dealing with multiple mental illnseses.
This semester is wrapping up nicely.
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