People say that God's love is unconditional, that no matter what we do or do not do, He will still love us.
Growing up, I was often shown love by certain family members only if I did exactly what they told me to- it was highly conditional.
I consider myself fatherless. To me, I honestly don't know what having an earthly father means. My father is not gone. He did not abandon me. But he abandoned me in a lot of other ways. I do not consider him to be a father because he has never acted like one.
I have spent much of my life attempting to understand what unconditional love means and what a Father's love means- the love of our heavenly Father.
I have felt God's love in so many ways. I may not have an earthly father but I do have a heavenly Father who shows me the unconditional love I have been missing my entire life.
I feel His love most in sometimes the darkest moments of my life. I feel it when I take the time to just be still and be completely in His presence.
I feel His love as I look up at the clouds. There is something so majestic about the clouds in the sky. As a child, I often dreamt about flying with the birds in the sky.
The picture above is one of my absolute favorites that I have taken. When I look at the rays, it reminds me of how the light of God reaches out to us in no matter what situation we are going through- no matter where we are on the journey of life. There is nothing that allows me to hear God quite like nature.
I have grown to respect God so much when I look at the clouds because when the sun rises, a new day is here.
I struggle so much with my past that watching the sun rise or the sun set reminds me who really is in control, and it reminds me to stay in the present- that my past is not today, nor is my future- today is today.
No matter what fears or struggles will come today, I know that He is there for me, and that His love never fails.
Growing up, I often was taught to fear those who I thought loved me. I assimilated fear with love, because I did not really know anything different. I thought it was okay to be hurt by those who loved me. In many ways, that has made it difficult to trust God- to fully trust that His love will never harm me.
The times that I have felt God's presence the strongest were and are those moments in my life when everything is quiet. My life is so chaotic and confusing. Being in God's presence allows me to stop and breathe. He calms me down when I am in His presence. He tells me that everything will be okay. He says that I have nothing to fear.
God is love- He loves us, but ultimately He Himself is love. And the love He is does not live on fear.
That is so extremely powerful.
His love is pure, real and true.
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