Today was the most difficult day for me in the past two and a half weeks. I woke up with some paranoia, did some meditation and my entire morning routine. I was alright for most of the day, except some high anxiety and mild paranoia.
I meditated to positive affirmations a few minutes before writing this post. I really needed to meditation and my anxiety is gone... and I mean, really gone. Not just for a few minutes or so.
As I was listening to the meditation, I thought about everything that I've been blessed with or that is going well in my life. Sometimes I get so stuck in what negative things because I am so used to bad things- abuse, mental illness symptoms, neglect, homelessness, suicidal ideation, etc. The list could go on forever. However, the list of positives greatly outweigh the negatives. If you know anything about abstract algebra, you know that there are different sizes of infinity.
Positivity >> Negativity
Today, I awoke to birds chirping. I turned my lights on- I have a lamp and overhead light, which allow me to dim the room during my morning and night routine. I have a laptop through which I can communicate with people all around the world, look for endless information, listen to music and meditations. I have a phone through which I talk to, laugh, cry with and express myself to friends and family. I have a loving family in many different areas of my life. I have food in the refrigerator. I can hear, speak, walk, run, see and eat. I have enough clothing.
May we always be reminded of how fortunate we are.
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