Hi “earthly father,”
I will never lose the images and videos of things you’ve
done to me and other family members that I am inundated with each and every
day.
I remember watching you punching, kicking and throwing my
mother to the ground as you nearly murdered her in front of me as a 6 year old.
And then you have the audacity to tell me years later that you were “hugging”
her. What you don’t remember is that I watched all of it and I will never
forget the incessant screams of my mother trying to get you to stop. “STOP!”
Her screams sometimes overwhelm me in the flashbacks I have every day of this
incident.
Then comes what you did to me. You abused me in every form
for years, even during supervised visits. All I can say is that I wish you were
in jail for the rest of your life. It’s not fair that I have to deal with
flashbacks and nightmares every day of
my life and you only got “a slap on the wrist.,” It’s not fair. It is NOT FAIR.
Due to my daily flashbacks, I have thousands of memories of
you. 99.9% of them are negative and
terrifying, I do not think I will ever forget them. I’ve come to the
realization that I will always deal with them.
You cannot take my strong spirit from me, the same warrior within
me that has gotten me this far in 26 years. No
matter the amount of flashbacks come, I will always fight through the
rest of my life. and there is nothing you can do to stop me from fighting.
-CK
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