Update

Yesterday was October 25, 2019, ten years after my most serious suicide attempt. I am lucky to be alive. Life has been challenging since then, especially when I was in the state mental institution for 2 years. I am moving forward in God's grace.

I try my best to surround myself with good people. I currently go to a partial care program that includes music therapy, Cognitive Behavior Therapy, Dialectical Behavior therapy, goal setting, journaling and other groups that I chose. I've made quite a few friends at program.

I love DBT and CBT because they teach me necessary skills to succeed in life. Currently, in DBT we are going over the Observe, Describe and Participate skills, which are kind of self-explanatory.

I love mindfulness and meditation. I participate in at least 1 meditation a day on my Insight Timer application on my phone. I am going to a Meditation class at the Science of Spirituality Meditation Center early today. I also attend Alanon Family Group meetings online or over the phone.

Last night's meeting was on Let Go and Let God. It is so difficult not being able to control the alcoholic or recovering alcoholic but we need to leave it in God's hands. God is ultimately in control and can help the alcoholic in ways that we can't imagine. It's hard to let go and let God if we want to control things.