New Years Resolutions

What is your New Years Resolution?

Here's mine and it has separate parts to it.

Listen better: Sometimes I have some trouble concentrating in a conversation or I'm so busy to reply that I unintentionally ignore them. I am willing to work o that this next year.

Don't be prideful. My pride has hurt a lot of people, especially those in college. In college, I was manic about 95% of the time. I thought I was invincible all the time. I think back to those times and I cringe. It hurts me to know that I hurt people. I'd like to work on humility.

Be more patient. Thanks to our 24/7/365 mentality, it is hard not to rush things. But we also must have fun in this life and take our time to enjoy every second of our lives.

Stay out of the hospital for another year. I just celebrated my 13th month anniversary of getting released from my last hospitalization. This is one of my largest resolutions.

Run a Half Marathon (13.1 miles) or a few 5Ks..Running is a great outlet for me to handle my symptoms. While I train, I raise money for many different charities.

Teach myself how to play piano better. I love playing and feeling surrounded by sound. Playing always calms me down.

Write a new song.

Crochet at least 200 scarves next fall/winter.

Spread love. Everyday people deserve to be loved no matter how difficult and seemingly futile it feels. Spreading love does not have to cost anything. Opening the door for someone or laughing with someone can make a difference.

Be Love

I was blessed to have received over 20 presents this year, which is much more than I received last year, which was none. I was overwhelmed by everybody's kindness and love towards me. I am honored and blessed.

A few of you know that my scarf project is coming to a close in a few weeks. My journey making over 150 scarves started as a way to distract myself from having flashbacks and being paranoid. However, I have been inspired to make more than I had planned, in order to challenge myself. My project has become somewhat of a tradition. This is my second year donating scarves. It has brought me a lot of peace and joy and hope. It has brought me confidence. Put simply, my scarf project has made my life easier and more meaningful.

On Tuesday of this past week, I shipped my second to last set of scarves to a soup kitchen to hand out to homeless people living on the streets.  Yesterday, I called over there to make sure they received them and the lady on the phone was ecstatic when she opened the box. I nearly cried tears of joy when I heard her reaction.

I am very excited about my scarf project and am still working on 9 more scarves.

Spread love. Be love. Feel love.

That's what Christmas is about. But we should not until one day to help others and love others.

We should spread unconditional love every minute, every hour, every day, and every year.

Sending out love, peace, joy, and hope to all of you.