Wow! Where do I start?! I am seriously overwhelmed by how many people encouraged me and said kind words to me the past few days. I received devastating news last Thursday morning. Since then, I've had bouts of crying and sobbing since last Thursday.
I posted about this on my FB account but more than anything, I have learned to control my reactions to difficult things and news. I will always have schizoaffective disorder and PTSD, but I can deal with it. My family will always be challenging to deal with, but I can get through the rough times. I've gotten this far, haven't I?
Some people think I'm inspiring or an inspiration, but I feel like I am living my life in the best way I can. I feel very deeply that we can make a difference on this planet if we do random acts of kindness or help make someone's day or listen to a friend. It does not have to be a big thing. Just spread the love of God.
Some people wonder how or why I love after being abused by my family. It is through others helping me along life's twists and turns that I have learned how to love. I also learned about unconditional love through experiencing the love of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.
I aim to spread that love around the world.
I am grateful for my Scarf Project, a project that I started a few months ago. I have crocheted 91 scarves for charities. Needless to say, crocheting is a huge coping skill for me. I recently delivered and shipped my first 75 scarves to 3 charities.
It truly is better to give than receive.
I talked to someone a few months ago about my goal of 75 and they said it was an "unrealistic goal." Well, I would like to thank that person because due to their lack of support, I pushed myself further and achieved the 75 goal.
And now I am on my way to 175 scarves this winter.
I'll leave you with this... With God nothing is impossible.
